So

I haven't been on here in a while been having a hard time though I should write about it.
I've been numb a lot recently, or depressed, I was doing good for a while but now I'm down, I mentioned bi polar to my therapist but then said I don't get manic she said "Maybe when you're thinking about recover that is your mania." I still don't think I'm bi polar.
So I was feeling good got my new jeans on then as I was changing into my top I saw my stomach and I thought I looked horrible cried and then a friend made me feel even worse and cried some more and did something bad I cut, and then I snapped at my sister. So today hasn't been good.
I talked with my therapist about colleges she thinks I should move out of state or a different city to get away from my parents. I think so too.
Then she also told me about a farm here, it's a petting farm, and it has horses and lets people with mental disabilites ride them for therapy, so I might voulenteer there. I'm gonna call them tomorrow but they might not be open since it'll be Saturday but I'm gonna try, if not I'll call on Monday. I'm looking foward to it.

~Laska